Living in the Movie of Life
By Colin E. Davis
(originally published 9-14-16 at livinginthemovie.com)
Living In The Movie is an analogy that describes a way of perceiving and relating to our outer reality that is based on how a movie is created, projected and viewed. We have found it to be an essential tool for raising our own consciousness and for enhancing our relationships.
Imagine a scenario where moviegoers visit a theater and sit down in their seats. They make themselves comfortable as the movie is played for their entertainment. If the movie is really good, with a compelling story and excellent production, the viewers may lose themselves in the movie. The movie can literally take over their consciousness. After the film is finished, they may walk out, a bit disoriented, remembering the significant events in the film that really compelled them. A great movie is transparent and allows the viewer to live through it.
Imagine that most of the time, as we live our lives, we are living through the events that are happening to us. Our lives are made of scenes that are intimately connected to our internal state, and we are traveling through them, seemingly controlling the details, but always finding unexpected twists and turns, some of which we wish would never have happened. Many of the events that occur are traumatic and unpleasant for us. We often wonder why we had such bad luck or why someone did something to us. We also say that many things seem to happen by chance. At some point we start to see patterns or cycles and we wonder why the same things seem to be happening to us.
If we go back to the movie projection analogy, we can imagine looking back behind ourselves, and seeing a beam of light coming from a projector room in the back of the theater. We can see that the movie on the screen is actually a projection and the source is in the projector room.
If I use this analogy to inspect my own being, the source of the movie projection is the light that the projector beams into the theater. That’s me, at the highest level, the real me. And the film is the personal subjective aspect of me that I normally refer to as my self. Transposed into a spiritual/psychological understanding, the light of the projector is my soul and the film is my psyche, or my mind/body system.
What if our perceived reality as we know it is universal technology similar to the way a movie is created and projected? We believe that it is. In fact, we believe that the human creation of technology (masculine), and art (feminine) is a mirror-like reflection of the universal evolutionary process. If so, we can read our personal and collective creations as a deeply symbolic projection or movie.
Another useful metaphor we can use on top of the film metaphor is one where we relate our being to that of a computer with our minds as software and our bodies as hardware. In this analogy our perception is based on how we have been coded or programmed. This analogy fits right on top of the movie analogy and again shows how we create technology that mirrors our nature.
We are each born with certain intrinsic characteristics, but as we are exposed to the events which play out in our lives, and as we are programmed by our family and social environment, the light sensitive emulsion on the film (read: emotion) becomes solid and then when the light of consciousness projects through our film, what we perceive is completely filtered by the way we have been exposed.
Our life as we know it is a projection through the film that is running in our projector. In other words, the lives we lead, and all of the events and factors which drive our lives, are the direct result of what has been encoded in our film or mind/body system. These events are not random, chance situations. Chance is the result when the many layers of code in us play out in the universe in a manner that is outside of our ability to recognize.
Thankfully, it’s possible to change the code in the different layers of our film or mind/body. The more malleable layers of our code are easier to change and doing so changes what we see in our projected movies. I don’t think we can say that any one layer of our mind/body code is more or less influential than another. Humans are walking and talking script that goes all the way back to the creation of the universe and it’s all playing a part in our being here. But the most recent layers of coding, especially that from early childhood, when changed, can result in very significant alterations of the way we experience our movies.
As we will explore, subtle but powerful dynamics exist in the personal relationships we have with each other and the nature of those relationships reveal our own code or film. We find that there really is no separation between the lives of individual human beings – we are all operating in total relationship far beyond the obvious. The question of free will is challenged when we begin to perceive the interlocking and completely unconscious relationships between people and every other aspect of the universe. Melissa and I firmly believe that ultimately, there is only one operation in this universe – the growth and development of one organism, and that being’s ever increasing awareness of itself.
When we come to understand the projected nature of our reality, we also can become conscious co-creators, so to speak, and be able to change the way our movie, or life, plays out by changing our internal state alone. Just as a change in the exposure of film changes the picture we see or a change in the coding of a program changes how it runs, we have found that as we change our internal state of being, our outer reality naturally starts to flow in a different direction, and we don’t even have to try. We have enjoyed great changes in our lives in the time we have been living this way without doing anything “out there”, but instead by illuminating and changing our internal exposure.
The other thing that happens when we understand that our life as we know it is the direct function of our internal state and coding, is that we are able to take 100% responsibility for everything that happens to us – everything. This is especially important in terms of the things that negatively charge us. Taking responsibility for the scenes and elements that appear in our movies definitely includes those things that invoke fear, anger, annoyance, grief, sorrow and the like.
Some might ask if a child is 100% percent responsible for what happens to them in their lives. We would say yes, but they are not able to act on that responsibility. As we mature into adults and the layers of our psyche and nervous system become developed, we are able to take responsibility increasingly. Delaying true adulthood is one way of trying to avoid this responsibility.
One final analogy that is helpful for us in taking more responsibility for the events that play out in our movies is Paul Levy’s analogy that he calls awakening in the dream. It’s a similar metaphor that explores the relationship between our internal state and our outer reality in alignment with dream symbolism.
When we do dream analysis, we try to interpret events and objects which appear in our dreams as symbolism that have a direct link to our personal psyche and to the collective consciousness of mankind. Dream analysis is an effective way of understanding the internal dynamics of our psyches. And when we interpret the things that appear in our movies as though they are symbols which we can interpret for successful navigation, we come even closer to the level of responsibility that we need to have in order to really direct our movies. Always asking “What does this mean”, was something I was taught to ask by my father after a great film, and now, as I understand the nature of my reality to be similar to a projected film, asking this question has become a continuing mantra that I meditate upon when doing this very fruitful waking-life dream analysis.
With all this being said, we don’t want to have to process and analyze everything that happens in our movies of life, but if we can live in a flowing way, in a way that feels right to us, even if we have to face challenges, we can face them with courage and with a certain faith that we have to power to meet those challenges. Then we are in a movie of our choice. And so importantly, if we can be free of the unnerving scenes that keep appearing in our movies, if we can be free of the negative cycles that repeat over and over, then we are really in a movie of our choice. and in fact, we would then be the directors of our movies!
These metaphors are clever, but can they really apply to our lives? Yes! Melissa and I live this way every day, and by doing so, we have access to our deepest coding and are able to stop destructive cycles and to read our outer lives as an accurate oracle for guidance. When we live in this way, our lives take on a new dimension, an artistic dimension that flows and is deeply meaningful. Living in the old way, where we are subject to the winds of change, victims of circumstances, is not empowering and does not lead to very much growth. Living in this way and knowing that all significant events can be traced back into our psyches is deeply instructive.
Here is an example of how aspects of my own life which would normally be referred to as chance are actually my own creation. In my own inner work, I discovered that some of my primary destructive coding was related to what I call the victim/victor code and is caused by emotional abandonment. As I was coming into this understanding two of my neighbor tenants moved out and new ones moved in. These two men,were each suffering from deep emotional wounds. I learned about their history over time and they revealed to me what they had been dealing with. As I talked with them more I came to find out that they saw themselves as victims, and in fact they each had specific circumstances play out in their lives when they were young that were act of aggression upon helpless children. They were truly victimized.
I befriended these two, doing my best to give guidance when they asked for it and trying to help them. Only after I really got into my own code of victimization did I realize that these men were aspects of me, they were showing me what the code I was running looked like when it was fully engaged. In my case, I was repressing my victim code, I was not wanting to see it for many years. It was the way I felt as a child in my early life but when I grew up and developed my own sovereignty, I repressed those old feelings and didnt allow them to surface. They directed my life in so many ways, and my movie of life continually showed me the scenes that this film or code was the source of. If I look back, I can see how so many of the people in my life were running the same code and how I always wanted to help them. I believd that my outer reality was truly separate and that acting on them was an act of giving. In fact, my helping of others was in one way opening up my heart or my ‘out channel’, but in another way it was a futile act because the giving I was doing was partially caused by my deep need to be healed myself, and I was not directing that care inwards.
When two new neighbors showed up, I was just at that time able to see my life as a projection. And as Melissa and I really started to go deep into our emotional wounds, we noticed things change outwardly. On neighbor moved out suddenly and the other died. He literally died next door, and that is itself a story for another time. Then as we began to come into the understanding of acceptance, the ‘in channel’, that allows self love, a new neighbor moved in. He was a plumber who was there to work on the building’s plumbing which was blocked, yet another metaphor. At the same time I received a metal coin at a party that had the words “go with the flow” imprinted on it. We pondered the meaning. We eventually realized that the plumber, who himself led a very flowing and self accepting life, was a teacher for us. And the blocked plumbing was later found to be caused by an ‘underground leak’, meaning repressed emotions. We learned from him and the circumstances and deepened our awareness of acceptance. He then moved out and a very neutral neighbor moved in who is rarely there. The other tenant was replaced with a successful contractor who is a fine home builder. He calls his business ‘artisan’. I see the shifting of the people around me as the outer reflecting of the shifting of my own inner state and the moving of deep emotional energy which has been the film through which my consciousness projects.
We call this way of living Life Art. It is engaging in life as an artist engages his or her own work. Our lives are masterpieces of art and we are all creating our life art in every moment, only we usually dont know it. Becoming aware of how our inner state creates our movies of life allows us to change anything in our lives by changing our inner state alone. The story above is one of countless stories I could relate where one of us has witnessed a change in our outer movies of life as the direct result of inner work we have been doing. Slowly but surely we are sourcing our own code, the film we are each running, and studying it for elements we wish to change. By first illuminating the source energy, then integrating or accepting what is, we are then able to move into the recreation process which is simply a matter of intent, but that intent is effective because the blocked energy which was keeping us back has been transformed, thus our life art is created.
These metaphors are an artistic creation in themselves and can be used just as a viewer of art uses the art as a filter to see themselves through. Art changes us by adding something to our perceptual filters. Art changes us on the deepest levels and by creating and admiring art we enhance our lives. Living in the movie is life art which enhances our lives in a very meaningful way. It has aesthetic and practical application. It not only sounds good but it works if we allow it to. There is nothing to be proved, only art to be lived.